I was laying here in bed thinking about stuff. My thoughts led me to when I was born. I was thinking how much easier it would have been on July 10, 1966 when I was born, after i was slapped on my butt and then all cleaned up, someone would have told me right away what I was to become. I was even thinking maybe some sort of mark stamped or branded, or even tattooed on me would have helped. What about on my birth certificate? The nurse comes and asks my parents what my name is and then she asks, “What is he going to become”? and she writes that down under my name. My parents have to then raise me up to become that which has been written down on my birth certificate.
Oh, then I woke up and felt I needed to write on something about our purpose. My purpose, your purpose, our purpose here on this earth. In this life we have been given. What to say? How many of us are living life doing exactly that which we are created for? I mean a soda pop bottle was made to hold soda pop; I guess you could put lotion in the same bottle, but it wouldn’t be the same. It’s just like us isn’t it? Just because we are capable of doing something doesn’t mean we are meant to do that. How many people spend countless dollars investing in something they do for only a short while. How much time has been spent on something that was good for a moment?
I remember as I was growing up I had many interests. I was never guided into any of them. My parents never said, wow that’s great, let’s invest our time and money to help our son reach his goal or dream. I was criticized for some of my dreams and talents. I believe there were some times where I was told this or that was good. There was a time when my mom did get behind me on this one thing, but it was short lived. Because I had no direction and
foundation as I got older I pursued many interests. Today I picked this up and did it until I was pretty good at it. Dropped that and went to the next thing and did that until I was pretty good at it. This went on for years. I never stuck with anything on a long term basis. So, there I was an adult and I didn’t have a clue what I wanted to be when I grow up. You become literally “jack of many trades, master of none”. I was so confused and frustrated. I’m not trying to brag, but you become good at many different things, but you don’t have a clue what you’re supposed to be doing in life. Why am I here? What am I supposed to be doing? Where am I going? When am I going to get there? Will I ever get there? These are the questions I asked myself in my later adult years. The range of the things I was good at was crazy. I mean it went from drawing comics, painting, building model cars, building bikes, doing stunts on bikes, working in general, road cycling, boxing, martial arts, dancing, bouncing, fast food, restaurants, retail, cars and motorcycles, security, pest control, car detailing, body builder, landscape, construction, maintenance, design, graphic design, military, manufacturing, fitness trainer, business owner, manager, hotel engineer, ministry leader, speaker, and currently blogtalkradio show host. I know I missed some, but you get what I mean. Nothing really fits together. Now, I do understand that God can cause all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28
Of course, I didn’t know that then.
So, here I am today not where I used to be, but I feel I’m not where I should be. I could also say, not where I want to be. What I mean is that I so want to be doing more for God’s Kingdom. I read and hear about other people doing so, so much. I mean I want God to use me in a mighty way. I feel like I’m wasting away by not doing more. I just don’t feel like God is using me right now.
Remember a few sentences back I mentioned there was a time my mom got behind me on something? What that was is she had introduced us to the religion of Jehovah’s Witnesses. She was raised in that and so she wanted to have us involved as well. At 13 I believe, I signed up for the Theocratic Ministry School. What that was is I learned how to research and prepare my own; what they call “talks” or basically a sermon. I would then present it at a service and get graded on different criteria. I loved it. I was the youngest at the time and I was told I was very good at it. My mom, I think loved seeing me up there on stage. She took a picture of me. This picture, without realizing it would come back around many years later with a huge purpose.
From the time I went to church for the first time in 2005 and then surrendered my life to Him in 2006 I wanted to know what my purpose is. The scripture that stuck with me first and my favorite is Jeremiah 29:11 – 13 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
In October 2011 I believe I was shown my purpose. I was sitting on my bed trying to find reasons why I’m not good enough to attend the John Maxwell Certification program I had signed up for in August. As I’m whining and feeling sorry for myself, a picture flashes in my head. It was like a flash of light. I saw that picture I had taken form my parents house some 3 or 4 years ago. I had it downstairs in a box. God told me to go get it. I did, and at that moment I realized what I’m supposed to be doing. The picture was of me giving one of my “talks” that my mom had taken. I knew at that moment I was to become a speaker and that I am good enough to get certified because that is what God wanted me to do.
John Maxwell Certification February 2011
So, I say it again, here I am today not where I used to be, but I feel I’m not where I should be. I could also say, not where I want to be. What I mean is that I so want to be doing more for God’s Kingdom. I read and hear about other people doing so, so much. I mean I want God to use me in a mighty way. I feel like I’m wasting away by not doing more. I just don’t feel like God is using me right now. Just because I may be feeling that way doesn’t mean that God isn’t doing exactly what He wants to do in me and with me right now. I am reminded of what Paul said in Philippians 1:6 being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. I believe I have written this tonight for me, but for you also. I believe God needs you to know how important to seek Him to find out His plans and purpose for your life. What are you doing that glorifies Him and helps build His Kingdom here on earth? or Are you even doing anything that has to do with glorifying Him or building His Kingdom? or are you still pursuing what you want to do? Are you doing something that “puts bread on the table”? If that is the case, I have to tell you that is not enough. That is a misguided direction. God did not create you to just “put bread on the table” or to merely “make a living” or to just “pay the bills”. You are much, much more than that. God showed me my purpose just one year ago or so. I was 46 years old. I have so much yet to do. I was taken out of the Corporate environment as a Director of Engineer to follow what I’m here for. I have to totally and completely rely on God now for guidance and direction, daily. One day at a time. It is so hard sometimes, but I have to stay the course. I want to live out God’s purpose for me, I belong to Him. He created me, I didn’t create myself. I have no rights to “me”, God has the patent, the copyright and trade mark. I think we forget that sometimes. It’s funny, we expect a dog to obey us even though we didn’t create it and God created us and we don’t obey Him. What would you do if your dog started acting like a cat or a monkey? God created the dog to do exactly what a dog does nothing more and nothing less. Why then do we think it’s ok to act and do things against how we are created.
Genesis 5:1 says that When God created man, He created man in the likeness of God. Matthew 5:16 says In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven. I could go on and on with scripture telling you how awesome you are. You are more awesome when you are doing what you are meant to do and be. I already told you that it isn’t always easy doing what God wants us to do, but he’s the builder and designer of us, I think He knows better how and what we are supposed to be doing. We have got to learn to change our thinking. We haven’t been taught the way we should have been taught and so our thinking is the same as everybody else’s unless we have begun allowing God to work in us. The world’s way is not the right way, I know that now. That’s why we have all these issues. Look at the addictions, the illnesses. People are living away from what they are created for and how they are to function. We have decided long, long ago that we want to be independent and do it “our way”. Our way has caused all the stuff going on now. Wanting to do everything “our way” has got us in a mess in every aspect of life. You can keep trying to do it “your way”, but I pray when you get tired and can go no more and you break down, please return yourself back to your manufacturer (God). God will make you “right as rain”. We are all “refurbished”, and it’s fine. Life is about finding out what our purpose is in life and then walking it out. If you want to know what something is or how it is supposed to operate, look for the “operator’s manual” (bible) it has all the answers you need.
Today I am glad. “I’m not where I need to be, but thank God I’m not where I used to be. I’m OK, and I’m on my way!” Joyce Meyer
I give you this scripture again: Jeremiah 29:11 – 13 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
I pray that today you will take a look at the life you’ve been given and ask God to speak to your heart. Ask God if what you are doing is what He wants you to do and if you feel that He’s telling you it’s not, then ask Him for clarity, guidance, and direction as to what you are supposed to be doing. He will answer you. He will tell you when you “seek Him with all your heart”. I know this all too well